Why? Why? Why?

Why do pre-schoolers whine? Why can't they talk in a normal voice? And why do they insist on talking in baby talk? The goo-goo, ga-ga crap is getting really old, just tell me what the hell you want so we can go back to doing our thing!!!!

Another lovely weekend in the L household! It's getting to the point where I dread weekends because Kylie drives me batty. I can't get my housework done for picking up or cleaning up whatever she's done after I've told her 10,000 times not too. And hearing that whiney voice "heyyyyy mommmmmmma" is like fingernails on a chalkboard when you hear it from sun up to sunrise.

I feel like such a horrible mother sometimes. I feel like the only thing I've accomplished today besides the 10 loads of laundry is yell at my child. I try to stop what I'm doing, getting down on her level, and all that jazz but all I get it the whine. I know the yelling doesn't help but in the heat of the moment its out before I realize. Of course I feel bad but I have ZERO patience lately. Between working full time, trying to keep the house 1/2 way decent, trying to get my photography up & running, I'm flat out exhausted and don't know how to deal with it so the yelling comes out. I just hope that deep down I'm not scarring her or something. I swore I would never be like that but maybe I'm the one who is scarred and I'm repeating the cycle. who knows?
I've thought so many times the past few weekends about putting my photography on the back burner until she gets older but it's something I love and even though its frustrating trying to fit it in to our daily lives, I don't want to give it up. I may put the business aspect of it on hold for a while and concentrate on getting out & enjoying the moment.

That's going to by my goal for tomorrow while Laura & I are out with the kids. Enjoy the moment and if we get some good pics, great, if not then we still had a good time. Maybe I need a happy pill before I go, just in case! ;)